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PCOS vs. Me

 

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Have you ever experienced being delayed for almost three months and thought you were pregnant? I did, years ago.


Akala ko noon, may anghel na'ko. Kaya nagpacheck ako. But, I did not expect the result.


Since pregnancy tests were returning with negative results, the doctor did a transvaginal ultrasound. No, I won't explain that further but the clue is already in its name. Anyway, instead of hearing a "congratulations!", she uttered, "mahihirapan kang magka-anak". I was shocked and confused so I asked her why. She then answered me "because you're not ovulating kaya hindi ka nagkakaroon".


I'm honestly lost with what she said. Ang una kong naisip, sh*t hindi ba ako babae?


After the ultrasound, she advised me to take pills to regulate my menstrual period. I will do it in three consecutive months. After that, I need to return to her for a trial.


You've read it right.


Trial to get pregnant.


Trial to take medicines to help me conceive. Parang robot no? Parang guinea pig?


I went home with lots of questions in my head. Bakit ganito? Siguro lalaki talaga ako na nasa katawang babae?


So nag-research ako about Polycystic Ovary Syndrome or PCOS at dun ko nalaman na, it is due to elevated androgens (male hormones) in females. Signs and symptoms include irregular or no menstrual periods, heavy periods, excess body and facial hair, acne, pelvic pain, difficulty getting pregnant, and patches of thick, darker, velvety skin.


I kept my condition private. Yung boyfriend ko lang (husband ko now) at ilang mga malalapit sa akin ang napagsabihan ko ng condition ko. We need a strong support system kasi kapag nasa ganitong situation. And yes, I even joined a community in Facebook for those women na may PCOS. They even share stories, ideas and how they were able to win the battle against PCOS. So naisip ko, may chance pa ko, and I'm still lucky na nalaman ko yung condition ko at an early age.


Going back, I did take the pills as advised pero hindi na'ko bumalik sa kahit na sinong OB, kasi pakiramdam ko, who are you to tell na mahihirapan akong magka-anak? Na kailangan ko dumaan sa trial. Sobrang na depressed ako, so for two years, I did a different trial for myself.


I quit my overly stressful job. Naghanap ako ng morning shift na trabaho and I was lucky to find one.


Umiwas ako sa mga fastfood. Yes, kahit mahirap. Pero kung yun ang kailangan ng katawan ko to achieve my dream to become a mother, I did.

Nag-start ako uminom ng mga organic na gamot/tea. Nung sinubukan kong mag Turmeric (nabasa ko kasi na para sa may mga problem sa ovulation yun), dun lang naging regular ang period ko (as in!) without the help of pills.


At most importantly, sinamahan ko ng prayers which is the most effective weapon. When I was losing hope, sabi ko kay God, bahala na Siya kung kailan Niya ibibigay yung gusto ko. Kung kailan sa tingin Niya handa na ko.


After 2 weeks, bigla nanaman nasira ang menstrual cycle ko. Delayed nanaman at naisip ko, ito nanaman. Kaso that time, parang may iba? So I stopped drinking coffee and any medicines.


Sa takot ko na baka negative nanaman, naghintay ako hanggang maging delayed ako ng 1 month. Tsaka ako nag-decide mag pregnancy test. And after two years, I saw two lines that time. It was positive.


When you least expect it.


And now I can say, I won over PCOS.


Kung nanalo ako against PCOS, I'm sure, ikaw din. Tiwala lang!



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